YACCT: Yet another Covid-19 conspiracy theory

In 2020, the world coped with a traumatic pandemic caused by COVID-19. The Chinese locked down for a few months, and then gradually opened their country. It is now mid Oct. same year and the US is still partially locked due to fluctuating new case counts.

One cannot help but wonder what the Chinese did during those two months that they were able to just open up their country. This is a country of 1.4 Billion people that sustained healthy economic growth to become a world power in just a few decades. Contrary to popular American characterization, the central government in Beijing probably do exercise quite a bit of care when determining these drastic policies about lockdown and unlockdown. A country full of dead people, after all, also kills the power that they have secured over them. They must have had a working vaccine or a portfolio of therapeutics to treat Covid-19 within people of a variety body conditions before they let their entire population out of lockout around the intersection of Q1 and Q2.

How they achieved these medical feats of wonder in such a short time is up to speculation. It seems relatively easy for them to take a city and artificially spread the disease using the food delivery system they installed to supply everyone with food. Then, they just monitored them through the course of the disease as the sick went to hospitals. It is neither unimaginable nor irresponsible if the Chinese did this. What’s a city of half a million compared to the livelihood of 1.4Billion people?

Now, I am all for informed consent. Recalling the birth of my child, in the first few hours of her birth, the nurse at this American teaching/research hospital left her unwrapped, heater lamp off and in front of a window open to October air outside. I mean, the heat lamp built into the cradle was on, the nearest window closed and my baby wrapped, and then some lady dressed up as a nurse came and reversed all of these, while I watched. My child shortly thereafter stopped breathing and developed a problem that kept her in NICU for the next 11 days, while I watched!

I mean, I understand that I may be either demented or deranged. For I’m writing about conspiracy on an interweblog I’m the middle of the night, for god’s sake. But I tell you what, around 40th hour that I was awake that day, I had a moment to wonder the halls of that children’s hospital, kind of feeling a little afloat like a ghost. And on one of those walls, I saw a prominent poster advertising for volunteers to participate in a “temperature study” to study effects of different temperatures on newly born babies. I mean I am definitely all for non-discriminating informed consent for all medical treatments and experiments. I would not, if asked, have consented to this study done on my baby who had experienced a difficult birth. But to me, it seems that we have all the appearances and effect having been unwilling participants. I’m glad science is advanced having one more datapoint showing baby will die if left out in the cold after birth. I just don’t think neither we the parents nor the baby knowingly consented to it. And I am still uninformed about the use of the data collected during that experimentation.

(for future historian and the child’s reference, this occurred in the early 2010’s. In case I do not make it through the dark days of antiquity, let this be a datapoint for future humans and intelligent beings. Perhaps you will enjoy seeing how far you have come since my time.)

That happened in a prestigious American Research and teaching hospital in America a better part of a decade before Covid-19 but. It seems entirely possible that the Chinese experimenting on their own to solve COVID-19. I can kind of imagine them being able to get 500k even under proper informed consent and free volunteering. This is, after all, a communist lead country. There is still a lot of indoctrination about the good of many irrationally outweighing the good of one.

So where is the YACCT? One wonders if China may have bribed some countries with the details of their treatment capabilities. The fake skirmish between China and India—that’s probably a cover for China actually supplying India with a real cure. Russia boarder skirmish with China? That’s probably when it got itt too. Probably the one country that may truly not be involved in this world-wide conspiracy against America, is Japan. China probably would not offer the cure to Japan, and Japan is probably too proud to accept it… all Japanese has to do is speak Japanese and naturally that decreases Covid-19 transmission rate, according to one scientific research. God forbid that they were caught having imported anything from China after Tang the Dynasty.

So, there we have it. YACCT, against America! We’re the only country who didn’t get the real treatment Portfolio from China. That medical Intellectual Property, having being used on 1.4 billion people for the last 6 months during which America was locked down, must be somewhat useful to us in America if transferred in full.

As a person of Chinese heritage, I am very proud that my people can pull themselves together and accomplish great things in a short stressful period of time.

As an American, I wonder where is this spirit in America today? Where is that zeal to be the most advanced nation? Why are we lagging so far behind China in reopening? Has American medicine really fallen so low and so slow compared to other countries?

But I am numbly hopeful. we will pull through this—the same way my American Child pulled through that inhumane and degrading experimentation. We will survive, we will persevere and we will come out stronger, smarter, and better.

Evil shall not prevail!

You Have No Rights and Deserve No Privacy!!

I had an interesting mind-belching last night. This morning, I found out that the Catholic Pope wants to legalize homosexual civil unions. I don’t know if this is like a real thing or if it’s a stimulus to Conservatives to work harder to support Trump. Recall that President Trump is in the final stretches of his run for reelection to the highest office of this land. Those that want to protect the sanctity of marriage will surely be firing on all barrels after this last blow. America! The last bastion for conservative valued people.

Supposing that we are reasonable people. Supposing further that we believe in evolution as a most supported and most likely theory about how and why we came to be in recent times. What does evolution theory say about Human rights?

I would argue that evolution theory dictates that there are no fundamental rights to the species Homo Sapiens. I mean the existence of a God is not even a sure thing for most evolution scientists. Why would we believe that Human rights, one of God’s supposed creation, exist definitely? Freedom is not guaranteed above all else. Human freedom, much like freedom in mechanic physics, just is. If we are aware of it as a named idea, it is because this idea to interpret the happenings in the physical (and the social world within that) world helps us to explain and predict what happens next physical world. Us knowing about freedom and rights is possibly an evolutionary outcome and not a precursor requisite for evolution and progress.

The conclusion then is that there are no God given human rights. If we are mostly not even sure that God exists, there is no reason to believe all these liberal and egalitarian ideals like liberty, equality, justice, fairness, freedoms and rights, etc., exist in an absolute and metaphysical way as mandated by God.

My realization wipes clean the slate in my mind. I believe I will start anew and rethink all these ideas.

What about privacy? I yearned for some foundation to support my unbearable and ceaseless wanting to be assured of privacy in many domains. But I have not discovered it. There is no reason that we should expect privacy.

This, matter, again, seem to be a matter of physical world. Our physical world has light, sound, EM waves, and many many other things flowing around that carry information about. That organisms have evolved means to detect and interpret these physical artifacts is self evident.

The fact that we have not evolved too much to hide ourselves maybe that we have overcome the need for secrecy and privacy. We do not have skin that look like plants and rocks. We do not change our color of skin or fur based on surroundings or seasons. We in fact do not become transparent like we imagine some adaptive aliens can. We do not have P2P telepathy for communicating very stealthily. Would it not be reasonable to conclude that secrecy and privacy is of no existential importance to human beings? We seem to have overcome the need for individual secrecy and privacy by other intelligent and versatile means: We can build buildings, boxes, locks, etc. to protect ourselves. We can set up defensive perimeters using advanced weapons so as to efficiently deter attackers. We have been able to use smaller and smaller amount of our society’s resources towards successfully preventing everyone from been eaten by wolves or cannibalistic commies. All without hiding our bodies, the sounds and lights coming from our bodies and our whereabouts. We have better ways to do it.

In all, it doesn’t seem like there should be a supernatural or a natural reason why we would expect to have privacy. The fact that the physical world is as if it was designed without privacy in mind would suggest that we might spend our time on other solutions that do not require privacy.

(Come to think of it, it’s kind of funny that westerners use “Chinese Wall” is used to describe an information barrier when the Chinese say 天下没有不透风的墙 And they’re not referring to thermodynamic or barometric properties. The wisdom is that no secrets can really be kept for ever.)

I will also mention again that from the Read-Write perspective our evolutionary security(EvSec) policy has always been access freely but never mutate. Recall our DNA is often read, copied, interpreted and reproduced by all kinds of mechanisms inside the cell. We can create new copies of it, but for the most part we need the creation to be as exact a copy as possible without mutations. So I do believe that write-protection and any kind of mutative change should be defended against. With highest urgency superseding secrecy and copy protection.

What is Good: Then and Now

There are a lot of ways to think about what is good and what is not good. This question has been of interest to humans for a long time. In an effort to simplify the considerations, we should at least perform a time based separation. We should consider the question of “What is good” at different times in the life of an autonomous agent.

In the picture we have illustrated the flow of time with three instants in time highlighted by round dots. T1 represents a time at which we have the leisure of analyzing what might happen, and correspondingly producing a good agent to make decisions. T3 is a time after decision was made by the agent. At this time more observation of our physical world has become available to us. The consequent benefits or injury caused by said decision. 

Let’s first look at time T2. At this moment, the subject of our discussion, an automated agent, enhanced by GCI and other tech, has to make a decision. It does not matter if the decision making is a discrete process that produces decisions at intervals or if it is a continuous process producing a decision at every instant in time. All that matters is that at this moment in time, there is some set of observations and some memories and states the agent retained from time that has past. The decision being made is entirely a function of these two inputs. (Lets model a true RNG as part of observation–we observe a bit from an external source of entropy). This type of abstraction is very useful for programming as well as simplify a vast universe of possibilities so that we may perform informative mathematical analysis.

At time T1, we may choose one of many approaches to implement the agent. The agent may consider a snapshot observation at T2 or some aggregated information in time between T1 and T2. We may, for example, simulate all possible outcomes, and try to device an agent that can make the decision that work the best on average. Other metrics and objectives such as minimax may be used.(In multiagent extension, one may also consider using the QIM) We may for another example consider the regrets we may feel at T3 and focus on minimizing that consequence while making the agent (This is to say that at T3 we consider, additionally, all that might be observed to happen after T1). The one stipulation here is that at T1 we have to firstly specify what the observations and memories and states are. Without confining ourselves to these boundaries we cannot make an agent and consider its goodness. In reality, the function computation is not instantaneous, and for practical implementation purposes, we also stipulate bounded time in addition to bounded power of observation and GCI-mental capacity.

By isolating these three instants in time, we can clearly see that there is no question of good or bad for the action of the agent as it has no autonomy. The agent does not bear the weight of responsibility for acting well. For even its programming is decided non-autonomously ahead of time at T1. At T1, the entity responsible for the agent’s goodness may be forced to place itself within the restrictions of the agent (observations and GCI-mind) In a supervised setting the responsible entity may provide supervision by answering the question “What is the good decision in this situation at T2,” or “How do I make a good decision known these things at T2.” Semi-supervised setting may ask “What other decision is this decision like?”. Ultimately the responsible entity, to be good themselves, must do his best to ensure the agent makes the best best possible decision at T2.

The impact of that decision will be felt at T3. At all T3’s, nothing can be done about what happened at T1 and T2. All that remains is to celebrate our gains and morn our losses.

The conclusion seems to be that GCI is not about bad machines. The analysis of algorithmic bias, the concerns for all kinds of bias in the training data, all of these efforts people are putting in to making GCI is not about GCI itself. It is really about the GCI scientists, engineers, users and policy makers. We’re really talking about how we can be ourselves better at T1. Every complaint that GCI will be so terrible, maybe even end the world, they are complaints about ourselves at T1, that we have not made sufficient efforts or progress for everyone to feel good about T2 and T3. For me, personally, I think we should continue to better ourselves. WDYT?

AAA

Affirmative Action, Again, is not fundamentally wrong. Every person is different, everyone benefit from different things. Even basic needs like medicine and education can be very different from one person to the next. As we advance our understanding of ourselves and advance our technologies, it seems the only path forward is towards more individualized care and individualized education. I mean, until we reach full comprehension of the/an omniscient and omnipotent God like some people believe they have, we can’t know everything and there is no way for a single human engineered system to work for everyone. Everyone is special, and every live matter.

However, in our present American Democracy have established that race based preference is wrong. Doing something WRONG in the name of racial equality is dangerous for future endeavors for racial equality. There exist great disparity in quality of life for different races of people in America. There is a lot of work to do to get where we want to go. If we destroy our faith for this righteous dream of equality by engineering artificial inequalities based on race, there will be true inequality among us for ever thereafter.

We should commit ourselves to work to make everyone’s live better and matter more. But we should not do so based on race.

The President’s Covid19 is such fake news

He just stepped down from a ferocious attack campaign debate. He can’t be covid19 positive. I know I know, bbc, cnn, msn, even the down future is down 500. But in my heart I feel this is fake news. It’s possible I am very very biased after watching The Comey Rule about the tenure of former FBI director Comey through his firing by President Trump. Seems like facts and fiction flow from one another very freely if the movie’s portrayal is to be believed.

I mean, okay, okay, I can believe that he has some symptoms. And I believe maybe he is a little warm. But I believe that it will cool down, by itself, you know, kind of like global warming will cure itself.

Sorry, it’s like, I guess after I think that I am starting to feel my apathy, his apathy. It’s like we don’t care enough about the matter. There is almost no way the White House will lose the President to covid19. Not America, no way. Most likely scenario, real covid19 or not, is he will emerge heroic and victorious over covid19.

I guess it does affect the election a little bit, can we really elect a President knowing he has a weakened constitution? okay yeah, I think maybe President Trump has Russia or China hack my head, I suddenly just saw him say: “I’m still smarter, quicker and better than sleepy Joe, even when I have covid19, I’m still better!”

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The Product Management of Auto-ON

It’s Q3 of 2020. There was just that big fire in California. My family is like all the other families here, we went through a frantic phase of buying air purifiers.

Why is it that I am am not able to find an air purifier with an Auto-on feature? What I can find are three types of control:

manual-on-off or sensor-based control.

  • Manual on/off switch (possibly with timer for auto-off)
  • Sensor based controlling the fan speed
  • Wifi-connected “smart” filter which mostly means you can adjust the last two settings on the phone.

Maybe the unit-economics of the business just doesn’t work out, but wouldn’t a feature that allows you to set a time of the day to turn filter on automatically be beneficial to all?

For the user, auto-on allows me to enjoy fresh air, and peace of mind, daily by turning it on during lunch (covid19) or before returning home (for normal working days) when I return, it turns down to low. I get fresh air. I get the comfort that the air is filtered. And honestly, it reassures me that air is clean irrespective of the accuracy of the sensors.

For the seller, this auto-on feature is a guaranteed win because it automatically consumes the filters. Replacement of filters is an income for the purifier maker. Quickening the consumption of filters means quickening the pace of money coming in to buy filters. This seems like a total no brainer to have.

So I am left absolutely dissatisfied and confused about these purported Capitalists running these companies. Why did no purifier company make a purifier that allows you to set it to turn on full blast during some time of each day?

It’s times like this that our mind begin running in wild orbits: perhaps it’s a conspiracy ? The government uses some kind of mind-control gas to control our productivity, and an air filter cleaning the air just before you return from the outside will counter the effectiveness of the mind-control gas.

Maybe the google and Amazon has “the secret resistance” employees that has arranged it so that the mammoth computer systems specifically give me poor search results because I’m a minority race(easily identifiable by name). Maybe that’s why I can’t find a product that make any sense.

Maybe these companies are all run by Soviet spies and made in China because they’re like a couple. FAKE Company!! Fake company !! They’re not trying to make money!! Fake companies are absolutely WORSE than FAKE NEWS!! I mean clean air is absolutely a vital infrastructure of the United States of America!! We absolutely have to stop these companies! They’re all spies!! They’re all foreign agents!!! They’re trying to keep Americans breathing sick air!

STOP THIS INSANITY!

Stop the bad air purifier companies!! Shut them down!! Shut them all down!! They’re all foreign entities trying to corrupt our god given gift: the right to a breadth of clean fresh air.

How to reconnect to router iOs 14.0

I just installed iOS 14. Aside from its Chinese keyboard being much jerkier than before the upgrade, and some new gmail quirks, everything seems great! Love the new modules you could pop onto the desktop.

One thing I did have trouble with was that I couldn’t connect to my router’s administrative interface any more… After a week of frustration I have finally discovered the fix. my router apparently checks IP address before allowing admin connection.

After you disable Private Address, the router will suddenly remember you and let you log back in again. Yippee!

Good luck with the next update, I hear it has a lot of new features.

The Orange Sky

It’s September 9th 2020. We experienced exceptionally dark skies today in the San Francisco Bay Area. New reports claim that it is due to multiple large wild fires burning all around us. It makes sense since we had 100 degree labor day weekend just a day before.

Orange Outside of Safeway Around Noon

News is blabbering about The revelation that President Trump “down played covid19” very early this year because he didn’t want to cause panic. People are calling him a criminal for not taking care of the American people.

The air actually smells fine. At night, the sky is actually very bright, it might be due to reflection of human lights back down by the same smoke that kept the sun out during the day. The news reports claim the marine winds are blowing in at lower levels close to the ground. The net effect is that we can’t see any sun but the air touch us are actually quite fresh. Sadly, another side effect of this is that my 7KW Tesla solar system generated very little energy

3 hours of a 100W light bulb is all we got from the Sun today.

My feelings are amazing considering the day. I have a slight inkling of what is to come if this doesn’t clear up in a few days. A more united California to be more extremely environmental for sure. Maybe more drastic laws/allocations to either fund some serious effing research or code changes affecting all companies in California. We already require all new constructions to have solar power. Maybe we can also require all buildings built since the 90’s to have solar. Heck, maybe even carbon emission allocations for all individuals. I can sell all my credits every year since I drove electric cars and use solar energy. It’s all good. There is nothing like human and society being propelled forward by disasters.

It also did occur to me that maybe if we can’t contain the fire that my house may burn. Or if there is so much burning that we may not have enough oxygen to survive. I seem to be content with the fact that we have no escape. If we run out of oxygen, the roads will be so congested that we will not make it out. (We did fill up gas tanks though, just in case.) My wife has superstitious believe about severe inclement atmospheric phenomenon foretelling large earthquakes—old Asian mythical believes. man, have I got a big problem if we had a real earthquake right now…

Watching episode S2S2 of the Boys. This show terrifies me. Storm front kills Kenji brutally, murmuring “Fucking Yellow Bastard!” I have to take issue with this for a moment here. I don’t care if the world is coming to an end, but this brutal expression of hatred by a white super hero is truly disturbing. I am losing sleep over this because it disturbs me. I don’t see a black person being kills “Fucking Nigger Bastard!” And honestly I am truly truly horrified. The sister of the dead “Super Villain” are Japanese siblings. She sees him die. She sees Stormfront glow with glee in front of the camera for killing his brother. Now, if anybody knows anything about Japanese culture… the things around honor and the acts of past Japanese people, killing, in the name of honor and possibly hatred… And, I, having Chinese culture in my upbringing, am keenly alarmed by hatred and vows to revenge, OF ANY KIND, in a person of Japanese descent. Not that I think anybody should hate or bow to revenge. But my mind floods with the past murders of Chinese committed by Japanese people. I just wish I didn’t see that, any of that. (I mean, also, can’t a Japanese do something other than fight teeth and nail in hatred?) White people do have super powers in America… the least of which is called an Executive Order. Japanese people are still people and they still do hate and value honor and revenge as part of their culture. Whomever this show is made for, I am horrified to know that someone found this amusing or entertaining. Any of these stories… a girl with super power can only fall for a useless boy… Replaying all the failure of Christian religions…. Women raising child of rape being forced to live with the rapist… The son of raping revealed to be more and more like his father… The dream or a promise that we may create a super race yet… and a Brit is the only one who could lead la résistance!? I mean what kind of mushroom tea was Jeff Bezos drinking when he approved this show for Amazon Original? Why make an even worse version of our history? I just don’t understand where our world is going any more. And I thought Silicone Valley was blatantly pointless and just plain mean and racist. This show really takes it to another level.

Okay, okay, so let’s say that this is a metaphors for the class struggle between the poor and rich Americans. And let’s suppose that it isn’t really recent immigrants versus naturally born Americans. The poor are the retched, drug dealing, dirty as heck, country-of-origin-diversified team whose only mission is to defeat the other team, and maybe right a few wrongs of the past. The rich class is the other team that has a few very very powerful white supe’s, and a few supporting minority supe’s. The rich team is the racist brutal bunch that can deliver policing brutality with zero consequence… oh wait, with consequence of more money and more fame. I guess I could be persuaded to see it this way, except I, my own person, cannot identify with either the racist rich class, or with the jobless drug dealing poor class. And anyways I feel if anybody interprets the show this way, it only stirs more anger and hatred fueling the volition to violence. I don’t see a parody Jesus Christ supe showing up mid-season and parts the ocean between the rich and the poor. I cannot imagine a supe with the power of peace. There is no way out of this mess except for violence and more violence—as far as I can imagine in the context of the show. Therefore the Boys S2 up to E4 is Famx30 for being absolutely agonizing to watch, despite superb execution and suitably choppy scripting for this genre.

The dust is starting to come down. The white flakes reminds me of dead people ashes after the aliens pops people with laser in the War of Worlds.

The red sky is almost identical color with the post-apocalyptic Gallifrey in Series 12 of Dr. Who fictions. Btw, Series 12 is so much better than 11… Maybe we should consider stop making these fictions. Maybe that way these fantastically violent delights will never come to be in our dearly beloved real world.

Never cruel or cowardly,

Never giving up, never giving in.

And if you ever be, always make amends.

– a Whoovian saying

Dr. Who S12 is a solid Famx1. Absolutely mesmerizing and everything flows very smoothly. And the Dr. is very much the Dr. even if there are many Dr.’s. The femininity is really settling in and maybe someday we wouldn’t even imagine this caring and knowledgeable and powerful alien could ever have been anything but a women. (I mean, you can look to some eastern deities for examples of some very caring individual who, upon enlightened ascension, eventually manifests to humans only in the female form despite their otherwise gender at their human birth. Since we know Dr. who scripting adopts elements and characteristics of myths of the east, this might be a very powerful storyline.) I am saddened that S13 might be her last as the previous several Dr.’s only endures 3 human years before regeneration. The sex change could use another two years at least… And I will say it here and now, I definitely will not watch Dr. Who inside an AI or Android. Absolutely not. Nope. Just won’t do it. famx\infty .

Anyways, just posting some observations and concerns… this blog is geolocation in a few places, so someone may see it in case something happens to all of us.

Good luck everybody!

A week and half later, same camera and location. It is already very hard to recall the exact feeling of that gloomy morning.

This race is so racially charged

Biden just announced Harris as VP candidate.

My outlook for the future suddenly feel so bright. I even saw some serious work from one of the Democrats’ twitter account about getting Trump state—they are working!

But honestly, I had privately complained to friends that I don’t want to see an old white man elected president because he is most likely to beat Trump. Sleepy Joe scares me and it’s more than derisive nicknames from the Republicans. It would have seemed that America would rather have a mediocre white man but not one of the younger, stronger, minority candidate even has a chance. It would have seemed that we would choose a president for politics sake and not for merit and vision and leadership. I felt doomed. A victory would have been a loss.

But now that Harris is on the ticket, I feel a heavy weight lifted. I don’t have a rational thought about this—my rational thought is I’d preferred Yang or one of the black or latino man, or even sanders to really stir up changes. But I honestly feel happy that she’s on the ticket. That victorious loss just turned into a losses victory. And seriously, there are news paper suggesting Biden plans to die in office because he’s “choosing a VP who can step in any time.” This is so sad for so many reasons. But I’m feel the hope spring, and changes are already visible.

I fear that this race may be too racially charged. I don’t like the fact that I look at Joe Biden’s race when evaluating him for presidency. I don’t like the fact that the selection of Harris, an Asian-African-American, for VP brings a smile to my face. Race is way too much part of this decision. Politics is way too much part of this decision. I cannot even think about what’s good for myself, and much less for the country, because my mind is just so concerned with the color of the skin of the candidate.

Truth be told, this intense mental preoccupation with the singular concern of skin color (or minority status) is somewhat supernatural—it does not diminish naturally. It does not suffer from semantic satiation: where a word become blend when you repeat it 100 times and that repetition causes you to forget its meaning or pronunciation. This intense focus on race, it has endured for many years. Note that the election has brought it to the fore-mind, it is a sound that echoes without decay of amplitude between my ears.

One kind of wishes that there was more to it than that.

If we weren’t against Trump

I signed up to the Democratic Party at Democrats.org. This is the official Democratic Party organization . It is Q3 of 2020 and the postmaster general, a donor to Trump, has just re-organized the USPS either in response to massive losses during coronavirus shutdowns or in preparation for the presidential vote-by-mail election coming up in a few months. One can’t imagine things becoming more partisan than this.

But staring at the multiple mails from democrats.org, I have a heavy heart. The DNC sends me 3-5 emails everyday. The subjects are either some one famous is asking you to donate (Biden, Obama, Albright, Warren, etc.) or that it was detected that Republican “outraised” the DNC. In both cases the first, second, third, and last paragraph asks for money donations.

I think, maybe I signed up for more than I bargained for. The political process I expected to experience includes things like discussing issues, or at least discussing the recovery from Trump presidency, how that will take place. For example, is Biden going to cancel everything Trump did by executive orders? Like what’s happening? Is the proposal to elect Democrats to every seat of government and undo all the laws that changes these years?

Some part of me feel that I don’t want to give money to the DNC. Their banal emails tells me exactly nothing to make me want to add another cent to this organization. When I did contribute to the Yang campaign, I felt there was a vision for change and progress. And I racked it up to inexperience the way Yang emailed twice a week saying “this is it, the last moment, if you don’t give money, I’m dead.” I thought that he did that in sincerity because he doesn’t know that the desperation does not garner more support. I thought maybe he doesn’t know how to influence people en masse because his professional experience had been in smaller enterprises of startups. I fought back vomit because I thought if we bear through it that there was a hope for more united and civilized and democratic future for America.

But now that I see that this kind of behavior is not just one faction, it is the whole rebellion organization, the whole resistance, the entire DNC are people like this. Even the experienced politicians believe that desperation win hearts, and hearts win money, and money wins the race.

I don’t know. Maybe I’ve been an outsider to Democrats until now. And maybe republicans talk to republicans like this too: “give money to me, that’s the only way I have to win.” It is horrifying to me to hear a leader say “the only way I can do my job is if you gave me money.” There is something wrong about this.

Why doesn’t the campaign show me the campaigning that took place? Maybe a massive zoom session, a rousing speech, something, anything. That shows me what the leader does with his hands and mouth. And brain. Something that shows me what he will do after being elected. Something that makes me want to give money other than restating “the only way to win a political campaign is money.” This Democrats believe is so sad! I mean even if that’s true, it’s not the sales pitch you want to make right? Don’t try to sell me a bed by saying “money is the only way you can get a good night sleep.” Tell me how soft it is and how firm it is and how it’ll even protect me from an earthquake when the house falls, tell me the big secret that the bed has unadvertised aroma that does the trick.

I don’t know… just anything that shows me these people care about doing what they are doing.

Like, we’d never survive an attack by an axis of evil with this kind of a party. (And I’m not saying there isn’t one right now, and I’m not comparing Trump or Xi to Hitler) but can you imagine Eisenhower or Churchill in their campaign speech saying: “give my campaign money or else Hitler will win!”

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